Hi all, as the title suggests, this month I will be continuing my scribbling from last month about the unexpected position I find myself in.
I can report that we, (Sarah and I), are managing to keep things amicable, well, as amicable as these things can be kept. I am still angry and confused, but to be honest, I am just too tired to fight and argue anymore, and besides, we have a daughter to think about.
I am slowly but surely getting my new home the way I would like it, and it has started to feel like home, but I still have a little way to go. My writing has taken a back seat but that is temporary and the older I get the more I realise that everything is just temporary, so I suppose the lesson here is to make the most of things whilst you are able. Must be careful here, I’m going off on a tangent and getting morose.
So, what lies ahead? I find myself busy now but what will I occupy myself with once the decorating has finished? Answers on a postcard please, or better still, here on the blog. I suppose I could bury myself into my writing and get that ‘best seller’ written, but what about the love and affection I so desperately need? I am a very affectionate person and I have been starved of it for a few years now and it seems to be changing my character....I don’t like it! I’m 66 years old FFS! Way past going out on the rampage to Bars and Tavernas , on my own in the hope of meeting someone. Clubs and Groups are non- existent where I live. The circle of friends I had has slowly disbanded for various reasons, mainly returning to the UK, or they are couples, and although I get the odd invite to join them, I don’t like feeling like a spare ‘thingy’ at a wedding! Oh dear, I’m doing it again, feeling sorry for myself I mean, but writing it all down does help. A good friend of mine suggested ‘Internet Dating’ but also warned me that it was a minefield....Hmmm, I might just have a look and I’ll let you know what I find.
Well, enough of my ‘therapy’ ramblings for now catch you next month.
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